Sorry I haven’t written anything in a long time, I have just been so busy with school…more will come on that later.
So this morning I was really convicted…I went to the grocery store to get some things and saw a man in a wheelchair wheeling through the parking lot. So i though about stopping and asking if he needed help getting to the store cuz he was trying to roll uphill, but of course i just pushed that thought aside and kept driving. I justified to myself that he is fine and doesn’t need my help rolling because he’s done it for a while. So anyways…I finish shopping and am walking back to my car and i see the same wheelchair guy talking to some guy out of the corner of my eye. So as I am walking back to my car i hear somebody say “Good morning sir” and I know it is the wheelchair dude. So now I am torn, do I acknowledge him because he is probably wanting money (Keep in mind that I came from Waco, where whenever I went anybody people were walking around in parking lots asking me for money for numerous reasons and i just ignored them because they were there ALL the time) Needless to say I didn’t turn around and got in my car and drove off. As i was driving home i felt this conviction that I should have turned and talked even if he did want money it’s not like i couldn’t do without a couple dollars…
This could have been a perfect time to help somebody and share the love of God. That is not done here in Colorado, sometimes i feel like it is a Godless place. But i think how can it be when i look out my window and see the mountains covered in snow, that He made! Anywho…then I got to thinking about my own condition, maybe my heart really is that selfish that i don’t really pay attention to those that are in need or i don’t know. If you know m i feel like I am very selfless when it comes to my friends and I will go out of my way to do things for them, thats good and all…but that is not what I am called to do: I am called to help and love on those that are less fortunate than I. (Matthew 25:35, Proverbs 28:27, etc…) So this just makes me think that maybe I am not the person that I want to be; i really dropped the ball on this one. And it’s not that fact that i just kept walking, it’s the fact that i consciously did it. That i thought about helping and then didn’t…just something for me to chew on
